Sometimes I wish I was invisible.
Cause people just don’t care. They just look. They just stare. No one utters a word! I feel absurd.
I know they judge me because I smell of urine, feces and infection. I’m a derelict all haggard and disheveled. I too hate my own relection.
It wasnt always this way. I had a family and a home. I lost it all for going out to roam. Liquor, drugs and seeking prostitutes were my vices. Now my friends are only the lices. How I wish I could go back in time! But I can’t! Maybe I just need to dissapear.
Why are there so many homeless people? Why is there always someone on the train or in the street asking for food or asking for money? Is it always their fault? They stink up the trains. They interrupt our reading. Should they just disappear? Could it ever happen to us? Is it mental illness? Was it their choices that closed doors? I decided to ask.
Stoner as he called himself was only 25. Very attractive if you bathed and clothed him. He told me he was a homosexual. He told his parents at age 16 and he was kicked out the house. They were very religious. He fell into depression and living on the streets wasn’t easy. He was taken in by an older man that prostituted him out in exchange for room and board. He had no choice.
He started begging for money and bought drugs from wherever he could get them. He was 19 and looked older. He needed to numb his feelings. He detested those aggressive men. Then one day he tried to escape and was beaten so badly landing him in the hospital.
One of the nurses told him that God loved him. He was pissed off. His parents told him God had no place for his kind. What God was she taking about?
The hospital gave him money when they discharged him and the kind nurse drove him to the bus depot. She gave him money from her own purse too. He came to NYC on a Greyhound bus. His home and his own town were full of bad memories.
We spoke for almost one hour and I actually had no money to give him so we prayed. We prayed for his parents to have softer hearts. He agreed to enter a drug rehab center to get clean. God loves us all. God is forgiving. I wanted to cry but I held back the tears.
Happy to say that the last time I spoke with him he was clean and living in a small apartment. He was still asking for money but now by playing a guitar and singing. He no longer smelled but still had scars on his face from when he was beaten up. He and his dad were now talking. His mom had passed. He told me he realized God had always been around him.
It’s true everyone has a back story. Perhaps we don’t have to give them money. But please let’s pray for them. Love and prayer doesn’t cost a dime. Prayer does work if we believe. Do you believe?
Look at this beauty! It’s the Aurora Borealis. The sad thing is that it is speculated to lessen in brightness and occurrence due to less sunlight . I think the collective negative energy in our world is trying to win out.
Did you every stop to wonder why in recent years there has been an influx of information regarding enlightenment? The Secret, the Power and so many other books , podcasts and videos have been made. If you read them are you practicing them?
It is our obligation to elevate ourselves to do more than just take up space in this universe. We each have been given a gift and we must share it with the world. We need to love and be loved. We need to forgive others and ourselves. We need to stop focusing on the negative and turn our hearts to the greatness that is being alive. We need to see the world as we did when we first opened our eyes at birth! Everything should be a wonder! All we see, hear, touch, feel and speak should be with amazement! We are alive!!!
This beautiful collection of colors is present today despite all the terrible occurrences in our universe. But how long can it hold on? Will you be the Dr. Strange of your own life and fight against the Darkness aka collective negative energy that is trying to take over our world? Are you okay with the Aurora Borealis lessening and perhaps one day being gone? Perhaps it is time to be your own superhero.
In the words of the beloved Michael Jackson — make that change! It’s just you with that person in the mirror! Don’t let that be your hindrance.
In the words of the Roman poet Horace- CARPE DIEM!!
I choose to live in the light!
I choose to not always fight
I am human and I have might!
I don’t always, have to be right
Forget the shadows of who I once was!
I’m not a negative. I am a plus a plus!
The void may call me by my name
Destruction and pain do the same
Stop complaining. Stop the blaming.
You always did have the sight.
It was you that chose to not always see.
You were blinded by envy.
Where are you now? In limbo?
It was so simple but you did deny
So little by little you did die.
Now it’s time to let the negativity go!
You are a beautiful being. Don’t you know?
Times may be bad but don’t be sad.
He is always there. He really does care.
Anger and frustration keep you blind. Self-pity is not kind. You may feel crippled at your own sight but just know there is always his light.
Stand up tall and take those steps. Choose yourself! Choose your life!
HOW MANY TIMES DO WE GET CAUGHT IN THE WEB OF NEGATIVITY?
HOW DO WE BECOME SO BLIND TO HIS LOVE THAT WE WALK RIGHT INTO THE WEB?
WE WERE GIFTED WITH SIGHT YET STAY BLIND WHEN WE CAN SEE.
ISN’T IT TIME TO OPEN YOUR EYES? FEEL HIS GREAT LOVE? START YOUR GLOW? LET YOUR NEGATIVITY GO. FORGIVE OTHERS AND YOURSELF. LOVE. GROW. GLOW!!