If I say I don’t ever think of you I would be lying for many nights I did spend crying.
Remember when you walked out that door and said you didn’t love me anymore?
Well it’s okay because it allowed me find true love in my darkest hour. I found someone more beautiful, more kind and smarter.
In your trivial mind I bet you can’t fathom the idea that I have moved on. But I did and now every minute is splendid.
It took me a long time but I did it somehow. I no longer live for you! I live for me now!
In my life a number of men have walked away from the love I offered them. When younger I was always left feeling empty inside. It was as if their love validated me being lovable. As a child I was bullied at school and was even told that only God would ever love me. As a teen I was unibrowed and gawky, my only boyfriend was blind and forget my prom nightmare (more details in a future blog).
In college I was very popular and every cute guy knew me but sadly I was just one of the guys to most of them so you could imagine my frustration. I got married and then divorced. All of this was just a cocktail for my growing lack of self-love.
I have been on a journey and it wasn’t until after my divorce at age 31 that I realized I didn’t need external validation. Heck now I no longer need someone else to love me because I love myself plenty. I am worthy of great things and so are you. Yes you!
Sometimes a breakup can take a toll on a person’s self-worth but remember you are awesome with or without a partner because you matter. Never forget that! Work on yourself and learn to truly love yourself. Once you do, you will no longer accept imitations of love especially cheap ones. You will already know true love and that is the one you find within yourself.
Hugs from Brooklyn