I would love to say I’m home resting having tea and toast.
Well I am not.. I’m at work wishing I was on a yacht.
No cool waters here just me dealing with patient’s illnesses and fears.
But I will write today because it takes my own anxiety away.
Thank you for reading if you did. I think that is rather splendid.
I’m an essential worker and lately my mornings are filled with meditations to motivate myself to leave the house. Now more places are opening making trains packed in the mornings. It is frightening since people don’t respect social distancing and some don’t wear masks. As a medical professional crowds like this is where viruses and bacteria love to dwell.
I ask myself if this profession is worth it especially now with me sacrificing my health and my time with family. Being a doctor isn’t what it used to be. We now have to abide by Health insurances and their rules. We have to fight to get medications and procedures approved only to have formularies change again in a few months. Patients yell at us when insurances won’t pay or the premium/co-pays are high. It is not our fault.
Well that’s me just venting. I have to remind myself that writing soothes my soul. I need to write daily even if no one will read it. It is my medicine. Namaste. Hugs from Brooklyn.
He slowly lured me into giving him my name and other information. He was handsome and a doctor so I did without hesitation.
After chatting for a few weeks some things didn’t make sense. I couldn’t find him anywhere on the internet or perhaps I was just dense.
I would ask him questions about where he was at. He would avoid the questions and just write some chit chat
I finally decided to ask him for a photo which he did send. There was just something off, something I didn’t comprehend.
If he had the choice to work only 9 months why did he sign a 3 year contract? I personally would not have done that.
He said he missed home and his family. I wondered if all this would become a calamity.
Was he lying? Was he conspiring?
Well I’ve decided to block him and delete WhatsApp too. I want love but not to be nobody’s fool.
I firmly believe he was just a romance scammer. A handsome one with poor English Grammer
Stay safe my friends. With social isolation people have taken more to online scamming. Luckily I figured it out soon. Stay real to yourself no matter what. Research research. You are beautiful and special and one day the right person will come along. Don’t despair. I love you. If you have someone already hold them close.