Letter to my Aunt In Heaven

Dear Aunt aka Tia Toya

Today is your birthday just one day before mine. I wish I could call you on the landline. You departed this life to live up above. But a day doesn’t pass without me feeling your love.

You were my Tia and also my friend. You thought I was silly and sometimes a bit insane. But it didn’t matter cause you loved me just the same.

You were at times quiet but always thinking. You were selfless in loving despite the tears you were blinking.

You sometimes scolded others but for their own good. In certain aspects you were misunderstood.

You were my mother’s sister and confidant. At the parties you were the most radiant.

I really miss calling you today. But I heard your voice when I put my hands together to pray.

Happy birthday Tia. I Love you.

Your niece Guadalupe Macias

U

Words
My words your words
Just letters add punctuation

So many emails in my inbox
Yet you were rendered speechless
You had no words to say

The alphabet is not quite the same
You are the one to blame
So many words so much to say
Yet you said nothing and ran away!

Now letters remain but no u.
No exclamation
No declaration

Just lonely letters
And your hesitation

Guady G
Sending hugs from Brooklyn to wherever you are. Remember there is no letter U in self love.

Pondering


I feel between us a great divide
It’s like you ran to hide

I just want to give you all my love
But it seems you think it’s stupid stuff

Is what I offer you not enough?
Do you prefer that diamond and her rough?

I chose you, yes you above all else
But I won’t live in shadows of her hells.

Are you caught under her spell?
Please shed some light if I’m not right
Cause to be honest I just can’t tell.

Love Guady G

Sending hugs from Brooklyn.

Shattered but not Discarded!

As a child I was carefree.
As a teen I was wild but still me.

In my twenties I lost my way.
It’s the truth. I have no words to say!

Then my thirties came and went.
What a waste of breathing.! A life badly spent!

I was broken and quite shattered.
I didn’t give a shit cause nothing mattered.

Who would love a shadow of who I once was?
Who would be okay with my ugly past?

Then came you into my life.
You said you saw me as your wife.

You saw past my bruises and my old needle marks.
You just loved me with all of your heart.

With you I didn’t feel shattered anymore!
Your love caressed me at my core.

You didn’t pimp me like others before.
You saw in me what I no longer saw.

I was beautiful and I was whole!
No longer broken despite the falls.

Your love came and set me free.
Thank you, thank you for loving me.

Story inspired by a patient’s story. Have a grand day.

Hugs from Brooklyn
Guady G

Colored By Love

Why do you find it necessary to make fun of me? Why does it bring you joy to see me cry?

I’ve done nothing to you yet you loathe me. Stop telling me you want me to die!

This dark skin is a part of me! Pierce it! I’ll never bleed for you!. Go ahead and try!

I’m not going anywhere for I love me! I pity your ignorance and that makes me cry.

Stop hating my essence and just accept my presence!

Happy Sunday. I send you much love. Never forget you are beautiful just the way you are!

Hugs from Brooklyn
Guady G

Into the darkness

Who am I but a shadow of who I used to me. Can’t find the strength to get off this bed.

Those vivid memories still paining me. I wonder if I should be dead instead.

The darkness seems safer to me. Would anyone really miss me if I were dead?

Then an angel came to talk to me. He said you matter so choose the light instead.

Can’t believe I had forgotten that I was blessed. Today I choose the light and I know, I know I’ll be alright.

Depression is real. When it happens you can’t see pass the pain you feel. You forget your blessings and sometimes a reminder is what you need. A friend, a therapist, love and understanding. Suicide need not be the end result. Ask for help. I love you all. You matter. Never forget.

Guady G