If only I could buy some time

I wish I had been told how it would be when I got this old.

I would really have let myself feel more love. In my condition the time left is just not enough!

They say I am not someone they can save. They say I should plan for my grave.

I really thought I had time to live some more!

But with work as my priority I never explored what love could have offered me?

I made no friends and I have no family

I have a weak heart and I can barely breathe. I’m dying alone and will then be 6 feet beneath.

During my life I could buy it all; cars, houses, fancy clothes from the mall.

Oh there were some that tried to get close to me. I couldn’t trust them though because they wanted to steal from me.

Oh so I thought

I wish I could return everything I bought

Just to have at least one friend

To hold my hand now at the end

Last breath I shall take right now

If only I could do it all again somehow

Last sigh

Goodbye

Happy New Year my beautiful readers. What will we do different this year? While we plan to make more tangible riches let’s not forget about the riches of the soul- peace, integrity, contentment. Money can buy many things but it can’t buy us more time at the end. Live life well! Sending you love and hugs from Brooklyn.

Guady G

The Doctor’s Visit

Those with with eyes that refuse to see

People are more than a means to make money

The sick come to us needing so much more

They need real care not just a bandaid and a kick out the door.

They say give 15 minutes and not one second more

But I always do cause that’s who I am at my core.

Yes that oath to do no harm and actually care.

But come 5 pm the staff is angered that I’m still there.

Even patients say I’m taking too long

They are accustomed to just being strung along

What to do when healthcare is this way?

Do I try to change it or merely look away?

I either advocate for change or lose my job

I’ve done that before and that’s why I’m where I’m at.

Do I care for them or myself in this broken system?

Can it ever be changed or am I just deranged?

Thoughts?

Hugs from Brooklyn

Words to heal you, right now.

Hear my words and change how I feel
I want to be healthy. I want to be healed.

Place a fortress around my soul so negativity won’t take control.

I am love and I am divine
Be gone omens that aren’t mine.

I am healthy. I am healed.
Happy is how I feel.

Feel free to use my poem to stay healthy and purify your body if not well. Namaste! This is best done for the first time in a quiet place after lighting a newly white cleansed candle. After that you can just recite it when needed. Must repeat 3 times in a row each time.

Stay safe and stay strong. Remember that many of us are empaths and some of those toxic emotions felt may not even be our own. Try it and let me know how it goes. Email me at gmaciasmd@aol.com

Hugs from Brooklyn
Guady G

Why am I shedding so much hair?

It’s approaching that dreaded hour.
That hour you know it’s time to take a shower

You have prolonged it long enough
You don’t want to but know you must.

But what is all your worrying about?
It’s about your hair falling out.

You are full of so much despair
Because you just keep losing your hair

You feel horrid when you look at the drain. You grab the hair with angst and pain

You shout “What the heck is this about? Why the $&@/ is my hair falling out?”

You go see the doctor and he says “it’s just stress. Nothing to worry about!” Everyone is going through the same thing due to Covid 19 stress. Losing jobs, getting sick, and losing loved ones causes stress. Anxiety and depression are stresses that make you lose tresses.

What you don’t understand is why from the top of your head? Why not from your axilla or legs instead? He mentioned telogen effluvium as the diagnosis. You felt relieved to hear of the prognosis. Your hair will grow again. Amen.

You promise to become more stress free. You remember and say to yourself “Hair or no hair I am still me. ”

Love you all and I’m not lying at all. Is your hair falling out too? What are you doing to de-stress? Stay strong. If you would like to check a nice video about this topic see below.

https://youtu.be/16CeP1hP3NM

Hugs from Brooklyn.
Guady G