Letter to my Aunt In Heaven

Dear Aunt aka Tia Toya

Today is your birthday just one day before mine. I wish I could call you on the landline. You departed this life to live up above. But a day doesn’t pass without me feeling your love.

You were my Tia and also my friend. You thought I was silly and sometimes a bit insane. But it didn’t matter cause you loved me just the same.

You were at times quiet but always thinking. You were selfless in loving despite the tears you were blinking.

You sometimes scolded others but for their own good. In certain aspects you were misunderstood.

You were my mother’s sister and confidant. At the parties you were the most radiant.

I really miss calling you today. But I heard your voice when I put my hands together to pray.

Happy birthday Tia. I Love you.

Your niece Guadalupe Macias

Pondering


I feel between us a great divide
It’s like you ran to hide

I just want to give you all my love
But it seems you think it’s stupid stuff

Is what I offer you not enough?
Do you prefer that diamond and her rough?

I chose you, yes you above all else
But I won’t live in shadows of her hells.

Are you caught under her spell?
Please shed some light if I’m not right
Cause to be honest I just can’t tell.

Love Guady G

Sending hugs from Brooklyn.

Ahh to be free. . .

Who am I if I can’t please you?
Who am I if I feel no pleasure?
I’ve become numb, quite dumb to have forgoten that you were rotten! I’m a treasure not here at your disposal! Not here for just your pleasure! I chose to feel and to turn the wheel cause I’m going far! Far away from you! No more turning back for you to direct me. I chose to be free! I know I’ll be okay, cause I’ve got me!!

Story inspired by a brave individual!

Have a great weekend. Hugs from Brooklyn
Guady G

Shattered but not Discarded!

As a child I was carefree.
As a teen I was wild but still me.

In my twenties I lost my way.
It’s the truth. I have no words to say!

Then my thirties came and went.
What a waste of breathing.! A life badly spent!

I was broken and quite shattered.
I didn’t give a shit cause nothing mattered.

Who would love a shadow of who I once was?
Who would be okay with my ugly past?

Then came you into my life.
You said you saw me as your wife.

You saw past my bruises and my old needle marks.
You just loved me with all of your heart.

With you I didn’t feel shattered anymore!
Your love caressed me at my core.

You didn’t pimp me like others before.
You saw in me what I no longer saw.

I was beautiful and I was whole!
No longer broken despite the falls.

Your love came and set me free.
Thank you, thank you for loving me.

Story inspired by a patient’s story. Have a grand day.

Hugs from Brooklyn
Guady G

Colored By Love

Why do you find it necessary to make fun of me? Why does it bring you joy to see me cry?

I’ve done nothing to you yet you loathe me. Stop telling me you want me to die!

This dark skin is a part of me! Pierce it! I’ll never bleed for you!. Go ahead and try!

I’m not going anywhere for I love me! I pity your ignorance and that makes me cry.

Stop hating my essence and just accept my presence!

Happy Sunday. I send you much love. Never forget you are beautiful just the way you are!

Hugs from Brooklyn
Guady G

Into the darkness

Who am I but a shadow of who I used to me. Can’t find the strength to get off this bed.

Those vivid memories still paining me. I wonder if I should be dead instead.

The darkness seems safer to me. Would anyone really miss me if I were dead?

Then an angel came to talk to me. He said you matter so choose the light instead.

Can’t believe I had forgotten that I was blessed. Today I choose the light and I know, I know I’ll be alright.

Depression is real. When it happens you can’t see pass the pain you feel. You forget your blessings and sometimes a reminder is what you need. A friend, a therapist, love and understanding. Suicide need not be the end result. Ask for help. I love you all. You matter. Never forget.

Guady G

The Leaves Don’t Want To Leave!!

We change whether we like it or not.
We bloom so green but then fall approaches
We begin to lose life but no one takes notice!

We are vibrant in pretty colors.
Hiding our pain and fears so well this way!
In reality we forget ourselves.

Then we fall and the wind takes us away.
Winter comes and we are but a sweet memory!

Well I’m done having to leave like those that left before me!

I chose to stay for I want to be the tree.
It withstands all seasons.
Even when gone it’s roots will always remain.
I too want to let the world know…
I was here!!

Signed the Lone Leaf

Love you all
Guady G

PS Do you like the pretty pic I took with my iPhone 11?