Sad is the day when you realize that many want to welcome you into the world but very few want to hold your hand as you leave it. No one should have to die alone! As a physician I can’t begin to tell you how many hands I have held.
Some patients had no one but many had family that couldn’t be bothered. Why? It breaks my heart that the end of life can be like this for so many.
If anyone has a clue please do tell me. I have a story I will post soon about my patient.
Who am I but a shadow of who I used to me. Can’t find the strength to get off this bed.
Those vivid memories still paining me. I wonder if I should be dead instead.
The darkness seems safer to me. Would anyone really miss me if I were dead?
Then an angel came to talk to me. He said you matter so choose the light instead.
Can’t believe I had forgotten that I was blessed. Today I choose the light and I know, I know I’ll be alright.
Depression is real. When it happens you can’t see pass the pain you feel. You forget your blessings and sometimes a reminder is what you need. A friend, a therapist, love and understanding. Suicide need not be the end result. Ask for help. I love you all. You matter. Never forget.